I'm a little bit shy, a bit strange and a little bit manic.

Been gone a long time
I kinda lost my way, I can't find it
And I caught a short ride
To the grave and back this season
I can try to get by
But every time I start to panic
I'm a little bit shy
A bit strange and a little bit manic

La da da da, da da da da
La da da da, da da da da da

I went to a wishing well, I sank to the ocean floor
Cut up by sharper rocks, and washed up along the shore
I reached for a shooting star, it burned a hole through my hand
Made it's way through my heart, had fun in the promised land

On the narrowing line, what a way to sort my troubles
In a very short time, gonna pop, better duck and cover
Can you figure me out? I got caught like a little kid stealing
Did I say it too loud? A bit hard or a little misleading

La da da da, da da da da
La da da da, da da da da da

I went to a wishing well, I sank to the ocean floor
Cut up by sharper rocks and washed up along the shore
I reached for a shooting star, it burned a hole through my hand
Made it's way through my heart, had fun in the promised land

La da da da, da da da da
La da da da, da da da da da

I went to a wishing well, I sank to the ocean floor
Cut up by sharper rocks and washed up along the shore
I reached for a shooting star, it burned a hole through my hand
Made it's way through my heart, had fun in the promised land

I went to a wishing well, I sank to the ocean floor
Cut up by sharper rocks and washed up along the shore
I reached for a shooting star, it burned a hole through my hand
Made it's way through my heart, had fun in the promised land

Just as I suspected...right as I thought life was going good I hit a brick wall. I am just trying my hardest to stay on the positive track and not be negative about the whole situation but its just not that easy. I have relied on this song to keep me going. The first time I heard it I knew right away it was going to be one of those songs that impact your life tremendously. It is an emotional song but with a happy beat, kind of like how I present myself as a happy, up-beat person while there are a wave of emotion inside me at all times. I think I can relate to this song in more ways than I can explain (without it sounding silly) and it really does keep me going. Honestly lately I have been just listening to the same songs on repeat, reading, keeping a low profile, crying for no reason. I dont feel like socializing and I dont really feel like being in public at all. I hope this funk goes away soon.

What's my age again?

Oh man..where do I even begin. I went to a Blink 182 concert on Wednesday and it was absolutely in-cre-di-ble. I don't think I can fully express how amazing it really was but I will try. So this was my second Blink show and although the first show was with No Doubt, which is another one of my favorite bands, this was so fucking awesome. They opened with 'Feeling This' which was absolutely incredible. I even told my sister as we were raving about and discussing our dream setlist that if they opened with "Feeling This' it would be a calling from God himself, and sure enough they did!! I was so fucking stoked. Throughout the rest of the concert, whenever a song would start I would look over at Shawna and say "OMG I LOVE THIS SONG!"without even thinking about the fact that I said that about every single song...I was getting my fan girl on real hard. There was a big group of like 6 really tall guys right behind us. I am pretty sure they thought we were complete freaks because of the way we would dance and just go crazy during every song. We didn't care, obviously. I loved the fact that they played "Fuck a Dog", "Happy Holidays You Bastard", and closed the entire concert with "Family Reunion". Considering the fact that they said they didnt feel comfortable playing those songs anymore, I feel incredibly lucky to have heard those live!! Of course they waited until the encore to play 'Carousel' and my personal favorite 'Dammit'. I almost died when Tom said ''take your pants off' right before playing 'Dammit' because that's what he says in the live album. I am sorry if that is super nerdy and weird, Its little things like that that really make me the happiest.

At the end of the concert Ashley said "Blink 182 is my religion" and that has really stuck with me because I feel like Blink 182 has played such a big part in my growing up that it pretty much is my religion. Not to mention that their shows are pretty much a religious experience. It really is. I have loved Blink 182 from the moment I heard the first song off of 'Enema of the State' when I was about 8 years old. My older would lay on the floor in our bedrooms with our heads right next to one of the speakers on our boom-box and listen to that album on repeat, all day. We had every single song memorized and I dont really remember ever feeling ashamed to blast that shit in front of my parents. We did that for 'The Mark, Tom and Travis Show' and 'Take off your pants and Jacket'. I am pretty sure we would recite all of 'Mark, Tom and Travis' show to each other all throughout middle school. To this day I don't think I have ever gone through a day without listening to at least one Blink song. I listen to them on the bus ride to work because I think its lucky and makes me have really good days. Its safe to say they were one the bands that changed my life. Everything about their music is amazing. They will definitely be a band I will absolutely LOVE even when I am 60 years old.

As for the new album. Everyone kept telling me it was awful and lame so it made me hesitant to even listen to it because I didnt want to be disappointed. Of course I had to support them anyway so I bought the album and since I liked the singles they had released, I starting listening to it. I fucking love it. It is different than their older stuff, but lets be honest, they are not going to write about sex, dating, humping grandpas and boners anymore. They are a lot older and they all are grown ass man with kids. I considering the direction their last album went towards, this new album makes perfect sense. It is still very much Blink 182, just in a different way. It has an element of every single on the them. It is stadium rock and AVA-esque like Tom, Its punk and very much Mark, and its hip hop and retro just like Travis. I also think the lyrics are a lot darker because they all went through some pretty dark shit, so its natural that they would talk about more serious things. I like every single song. Seriously, go check it out!

Sorry for the rant. I take the word "obsession" to a whole new level.

Ashes and Fire

If you're interested in talented musicians and great, soulful, heart wrenching music...go to this website, dim the lights, lay down and close your eyes and listen to every word he says and just take his music all in. One of my favorite things to do and ironically enough he is one of my favorite artist to do this with. This is Ryan Adams newest album which isn't out yet but you can listen to it in its entirety before it comes out. Its slow, its dancy. You get both his twangy country tunes as well as his slow melodic side. Hands down one of my favorite artist of all time and if you like his newest stuff I would definitely recommend his older stuff as well. Let me know what you think!

Hair!

It's no secret that I get bored with my hair pretty quickly. I think I have dyed my hair every color possible and I have had my fair share of hair styles. I've had purple hair, black, blonde, red, orange, pink, streaks, no streaks, pixie cut, past my boobs, bangs, no bangs, layers and no layers. The whole sha-bang! I just love the way you can have fun channel your creativity through something as simple as your hair. There is nothing that makes me cringe more than when I meet someone who has done NOTHING with their hair. It's sort of my own personal bore-o-meter. Have fun, change it up....in the end hair will ALWAYS grow back. Trust me. Here are some of my favorite styles right now.

How amazing does she look with short hair?? I cant get over it!

Michelle Williams- obviously!

Ginnifer Goodwin- Obviously!

What I love about Alexa Chung's hair is that its soooo simple but yet it looks so modern and "hip". I really love the length and her down the middle part. I have been playing around with my part as well and I was thinking about doing it down the middle but I haven't decided if I liked the look on myself quiet yet. Love it on her though and I also love how she successfully pulled off the ombre look with short hair.  A good example on how hair can be simple yet not boring.

HannaBeth- my current hairspiration. I love everything about her and I will post an entire blog about it soon.

Hayley Williams- OBSESSED with her red hair! So beautiful. I remember dying my hair pink and purple back in High School and now crayon colored hair is a trend! Woo, go artificial coloring. 

Liz Lee! It's no secret that I love her hair. I cant wait to dye my hair back to red once its long enough. I may even add a little bit of another color to my bangs like that! :)

As for me...

My hair is still short. It's growing and at least now I can wear it naturally curly without it looking weird so I have decided to stop damaging it with a straightener and just wear it au natural as it grows. Like I mentioned before I haven't decided what I wanted to do with my bangs just yet but I am leaning more towards growing it out while my hair is short and then cutting it short once its long. What do you guys think? 

Fashion Blogs

I spend a good 90% of my free time looking at fashion blogs. I'm not ashamed...and yes I am aware that I may or may not be insane but its cool. These are some of my favorite fashion blogs. I tend to fancy the ones that are more about personal style or and street wear since they're the ones the inspire my own personal style as well. So if you're one of those girls (or boys) wonders how to spice up your wardrobe, or one of those girls who constantly seeks creative inspiration or even if you're like me and just obsess over fashion at all times, this is for you.

www.thesartorialist.com
http://5inchandup.blogspot.com/
http://songofstyle.blogspot.com/
http://www.teenvogue.com/connect/blogs/tvdaily  < and the blogs featured on that blog!

:)

Ever felt like things are going so well that you want to talk all about it but you just know that as soon as you even say the words "I am happy" something super bad happens? That's pretty much how my life is like right now. As I sit in my heavy thick knit cardigan, watching keeping up with the kardashians (guilty)  and thinking about how I just applied and interviewed for the job of my dreams, I can honestly say that life is good.

So, I had a drink with my co-workers a couple nights ago. Yes....I completely failed at not drinking but for what its worth it kind of proved that I am not ready to go back to drinking. I was blacked out completely by the time I got home. I woke up not remember key parts to the night and then feeling humiliated afterwards. It was a lot like that episode of Awkward where Jenna's mom's friend visits and throws that huge rager and Jenna blacks out and remembers/hears stories about embarrassing shit she did the next day.That feeling just doesn't justify drinking right now because its a horrible horrible feeling. I did have a lot of fun though. Those guys always know how to have a good time.

Are you listening? WoOOooooOOoo

Just got back from an incredible Jimmy Eat World show at the Fillmore. I've been a huge fan of them since middle school but this was my first time ever seeing them live. SO FUCKING GOOD. For lack of better words, they blew me away. They played their entire 'Bleed American' album its in entirety and then as an encore they played a bunch from 'Futures' and they ended the night with 'Pain'. Naturally I was expecting an amazing show and really it met and exceeded all of my expectations. Jim Adkins is looking so damn good. Lost a ton of weight and his voice sounds just like it always has, if not better. Nothing makes me happier than seeing rock n roll so alive. In the midst of all the shitty "modern" music, its nice to stick with the classics.

Living in San Francisco has given me so many opportunities to see so many of the bands i've always wanted to see live. Living in Portland, you didn't really see very many bands come around...at least not that I was ever aware of. Mostly just bands from the NW; The Shines, Decemberists, Death Cab etc etc. Now that I am in a big city, it has been so amazing to be able to see so many of the bands I've always wanted to see. October is a huge months for shows which I am excited about. I am looking forward to seeing Blink 182 for the second time, MCR for the second time, Incubus for the first, Young the Giant, Pepper, Expendables, Cage the Elephant and Foo Fighters for the very first time!! AHH!! I still can't wrap my head around the fact that I am seeing Foo Fighters TWICE in one month, and I probably wont believe it after it happens either. Hands down one of the my favorite bands of all time! Luckily I have an incredible boyfriend to keep me company as well. :)

Although it may seem like I am doing so much, I definitely believe in quantity over quality...in possessions, friendships and experiences. I don't feel the need to do everything all at once just for the sake of saying that I am or have done all of it, but I simply take the experiences my life allows me to take and I make sure to make the best of all situations. I am very thankful to be able to do and experience the things I have experienced and I think it makes me appreciate it more knowing that these kinds of things aren't always at my disposal.